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...and so, another episode of my life unfolds;
My father is dying, consumed by cancer.
My blogs have so far contained life as a child, as an adult, but for life to continue, then it must contain death.
I have some vague recollection of my brother breaking the news to me.
I cannot remember it totally as I collapsed from shock.
It is a shock.
For now, I want to be alone, in-fact EU is a blessing.
My life consists of doing my chores as quickly as possible, then hiding myself away at home, logging into EU, browsing EF and sleeping..alot.
My dreams are nightmares, I dream of tall buildings that I have climbed, then they collapse, and I fall, I presume to my death..but awaken before it happens.
My journey continues, and I cant hide from it.
My mother cant drive, therefore I now have to drive my father to the hospital for biopsy's and treatment.
Im going to watch my father wither, get weaker, suffer and eventually die.
And I have no option NOT to.
Lets face it, Im not alone, cancer or not.. we all watch our parents get older, wither and die.
Part of life.
Im not looking forward to this part..NOT at all.
My father is dying, consumed by cancer.
My blogs have so far contained life as a child, as an adult, but for life to continue, then it must contain death.
I have some vague recollection of my brother breaking the news to me.
I cannot remember it totally as I collapsed from shock.
It is a shock.
For now, I want to be alone, in-fact EU is a blessing.
My life consists of doing my chores as quickly as possible, then hiding myself away at home, logging into EU, browsing EF and sleeping..alot.
My dreams are nightmares, I dream of tall buildings that I have climbed, then they collapse, and I fall, I presume to my death..but awaken before it happens.
My journey continues, and I cant hide from it.
My mother cant drive, therefore I now have to drive my father to the hospital for biopsy's and treatment.
Im going to watch my father wither, get weaker, suffer and eventually die.
And I have no option NOT to.
Lets face it, Im not alone, cancer or not.. we all watch our parents get older, wither and die.
Part of life.
Im not looking forward to this part..NOT at all.