Some thoughts, a tltr but you better do...
In retrospect a log like this suffers from a certain blur. I try to record everything i do to my best knowledge, but the things i do are happening in an digitized environment that at its best tries to appear as analogue as possible (reality is analogue and a virtual reality at its best is analogue too), i am an analogue beeing in an analogue world and i try to digitize the things i do. So i state some factors that create that blur:
- estimation of MU and the problem of unsold auctioned items
- auction fees (the bigger the tt of an item and the bigger the MU the more accurate is the information i give)
- i am a gamer not an accountant, so sometimes i create costs i am unaware of.
- i am vague about fap costs and spendings on ME as well as oil for the ship
- i sell ammo to the TT in the stacks they come, well aware of the fact that this makes me lose on a micropec scale
- i die and shoot, tp or fly out of a situation
- the game lags
- i have a soc and sometimes help out, or meet to trade
- i get bargains, presents, find things on the ground
- i kill mob thats in the way
- i might stop using one item and use another one instead, or one calcu has the price of a full Apis included the next 3 hunts dont.
- i sometimes forget things, like small repairs
- i sometimes do small tests or take 20 probes with me, that i dont note down
... and and and
so the picture i give you is a floating one and i use to offset now and then to let the error rate get not too big. With help of the offset calculation, i keep the error rate under +-5%
There are unseen repair cycles that still might play a role in the longterm calculation. While i have to repair my orerefiner and tp chip only once a year, my mindforce implant every 3 months, my L-faps last only weeks, my L-guns only a day or 2 and the usual mining amp under one hour.
Another factor is beeing human and therefore sometimes beeing prone to emotion and therefore and emotional acts.
-This whole forum is stuffed with information about the game, but in my nearly 5 years here i think i have never read the term "emotional act' before! (in german Affekthandlung i hope i found the right english word for it, funny the word Affe -Ape is in the word Affekt)
I would postulate that emotional acts are Mind Arks greatest income source!
So put on my thinking hat and see EU through the eyes of a psychology student:
A run was shitty, grrrr i tt it, the return is too diversified, the stacks to small to auction off, grrr i tt it, i could walk, i could fly, but i need to be there asap, so i jump. Pedcard is empty so i trade the stuff off to the next best street-trader instead of waiting for the good one, 3% loss on average, wtf cares. This mob pissed me off darn crits! (may you apologize this emotional language but this is the everyday experience) ...it must DIE! A player killed me in PvP and looted 5ped off of me, so i spend another 5ped on a new toxic shot and another 5ped to have my revenge. Auctions do not sell so i need to dump my stuff to tt or elsewhere, all i need are PEDS!...Crap! All this didnt help to hit a big one, damn it i depo...
i could go on and on and on... all this stuff happens to me, to you , to everybody who is playing this game!
And these are only the aspects of negative emotions. Lets come to the positive...
Still shaking because you just have hit the biggie? I bet your point of view on generosity towards other players just has altered. Having a nice disciple, or had a good chat? Youre more likely to give things away for free or for a good price to people that touched your soul. Got a nice present from another player, you might be tempted to return the favor or show the same generosity to another player.
So basically all this and much more are aspects of the blur of the analogue world. Now EU is a virtual world full of human beeings. Our reputation on those positive emotions is huge, they forge the community we are! But speaking about the negative side, the emotional acts seem to stay in secrecy and seem to be a taboo to most participants, because everybody knows by instinct that falling prone to these emotional acts is weak, and thus is wrong. Instead we see their effect or outer appearance in many occasions, tend to ignore them on a good day, but get sucked in on a bad day.
Its frustration that the latest deposit is gone already that leads to what i call ped despair, the urge to sell quick and underpriced to the next best opportunity, even if its the TT, which again leads to latest deposit rather quickly, which most likely leads again to frustration and ped despair and the vicious circle starts anew. The big picture of an addiction.
Kept in this circle we are most likely to go to the forum and start a rant, a whine thread or worse. And we blame MA, the ubahs, the crafters, the resellers, the big money guys and whatnot... where in fact we should blame ourselves for wrong behaviour...
i could go on and on and on... all this stuff happens to me, to you , to everybody who is playing this game!
i often stated that this game is not a gamble but a competition, actually that depends on you and as you look at it. I said in the first state you need to beat the system in the next state your competition. But in fact... first and foremost you need to beat yourself. Maybe beat yourself is a little hard expression, you could turn it around and tell it, teach yourself certain virtues. Patience and Discipline are the two virtues that help you avoid the mistakes mentioned above.
What you make out of it, is on you!
(Please note the sarcasm 
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, one with 1227/10k
Hope you'll appreciate the wireline here 
