So, flaming turned into trolling.
I would like to use this occasion to thank all the people who pm'ed me telling that this will happen. I have to admit that I had my doubts, considering this unfortunate event. I was hoping it will stop on assumptions and subjective judgements. Apparently I was wrong.
Along with the warnings about the flaming, trolling, insults, assumptions and false judgements, I would also like to thank people who supported me more than I could think of. Even though not everyone who supported me expressed an opinion here, the fact that I received a lot of 'cheer up' messages and +rep three times more than -rep, means a lot, given the circumstances. My decision was never made based on majority vs minority, but it's always good to know how you stand in community - hence the weight of the +rep received, as a mirror of how people understood my point of view.
As someone with a different opinion stated above, I do talk too much and I also am new here. Before Squall told me how the rep works and where should I press to send it to other people, I didn't even knew what's it all about. I made this account in December, but as I started to learn along the way, from 'young with only one lill' green square', I moved to 'mature with two lill' green squares'. So I guess that's a prof itself about the +rep I received in such a short period of time.
I mentioned all this so that people who care so much about my mental health, feelings, forum activity, place of origin, income/month, religion, sex, looks, future activities, reputation within PE, number of friends, would have some information to feed their interest.
Yes, I will keep the peds. Yes, I feel sorry for his loss, as long as I've done it myself and know how it feels. Yes, the game is built this way and unfortunately people lose peds by low MU, bad decisions, misclicks, auction mistakes, pvp. Yes, I have the exact amount of empathy towards him, as a pk'er has towards his victim in pvp, as long as his stupid mistake made in a 3 step bidding process is similar to the risk a miner takes when entering pvp4. Yes, I *probably* am cute, but most certainly am a witch for those who flamed me since this thread was made and now started to troll and throw insults meant to somehow break my will. And last, but not least - yes, I will shut the hell up and mind my own business and game time, as long as my only mistake was to set an item in auc and to accidentally loot a 'miner' who willingly stepped on a land mine. It was not my fault, I haven't force anyone into doing anything and ultimately, auction house is as risky as any loot pvp area, as long as you work with your own fingers handling the wires. He cut red instead of blue and I'm suppose to resurrect him... Well, I'm sorry, but I'm a witch, remember?!... A psychopathic witch drawn to the dark side where Lord Vader awaits. So it would only be logical not to disappoint anyone.... right?!....
I'm sorry Medicant, or My2012Doomsday, or...whatever your avatars may be named, but this apology is more than anything a pk'er ever did towards his victim and more than I ever received from the mistakes I've done myself. I even accepted your friend request and chatted with you - unlike most (if not all) of looted players in pvp areas, where pk'er ignores the victim. The fact that I have a background full of errors for which I've payed on my own, including one huge error identical with yours, made your mistake even worse, because I am trained to expect this and willing to act the same.
And talking about karma, probably this is the karma that we have to focus on. Not about the peds I've lost, or the peds you've lost, but the fact that MA left this rule of 'all trades are final' and answered me 'No. We can not do that.' and years after, I find myself in the situation of giving forward this type of behavior, thus making you act the same if you will ever be in the place I am now. And I know that 'I could have stopped it', but it's only a superficial thought to believe I could have 'changed the world'. No I couldn't have. I would have only looked like a fool in my own eyes. A stupid psychopathic witch....
But you know what? This is how it's meant to be. No matter of what the flamers/trolls say... A pk'er never stops to regret his kills. He swallows the pill, or does that shot...whatever...enters pvp, and prays to God, or should I say...prays to Lord Vader for some victims. So no one is trying to change the world into a better place. Especially this virtual one... The only people who think different about my situation are the ones who wish it happened to them... Because deep down they know is not similar with the returning of an Imp Fap, or sharing acc info with trustworthy friends, but similar to a pvp kill, or an auction bid won on low MU at 5:00 A.M. when there's no one around to bid...
I'm sorry if I have offended anyone with anything. I say 'Thank you!' again to all who supported me and encouraged me not to give in. I am not soft, nor harsh. I am just a simple PE player, like all of you. You can either accept that, or you don't... But if you don't, place yourself in opposition with any player who enters pvp4 or space with the thought of killing people and think for a second that it actually may be you one day in the hunters position...
Goodbye!