~Mikah's Corner~

Welcome to Mikah's World.. Please leave sanity at the doorstep.
Thank You!!

First off, I'd like to say to whoever is reading this, thank you for wasting your precious time reading someone else's thoughts, must mean that either you have nothing better to do or you have some spare time (or actually interested ) ..
Before anything, I'd like to say a few things...

I will write and post my thoughts according to the rules of this forum and within common sense, however, I'd like to warn a few people that this Diary is not meant for children, furry animals or people that get offended easily and are bothered by free speech or free thoughts.. please leave now...

For those who will continue to be loyal readers, Thank You. This diary will include many good things, including a List of Sponsors for our newcommers events that have been accumulating in time (this will be updated regularly), a Sweaters Blog (which is on the works), interview with past newbie events winners (also on the works, yes... I keep myself busy ), some random rants,thoughts and much, much more...

I have been asked by a few why I don't have a diary and that I should start one... I figured, well why not? I'll even try to make it informative while I'm at it... I'm not new to the whole online diary thing, I've had one before for my IRL...

Speaking of IRL, I'm still unsure how I should go about it here, so for now I'll just post about my life in Eu and when the time comes, I'll see if I cross that road..

I've been reading some of the other Diaries since I started on Ef and I must admit, I think we have alot of very good writers in here .
It's so interesting to see how a "game" can also attract so many intellectual individuals...


Figured I'd end my intro post with a nice picture, this one includes our homeplanet, Earth and two dolphins... it would be nice to eventually introduce a species that resembles them into Calypso , would send more people hunting on water...

Continuation..

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The Day after the VU

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Sponsorship List

Without these sponsors, newcommer events would cease to exist! A Special Thank You to all my soc mates, these events take collaboration and alot of work creating, without them they simply couldnt be done... Below is a list of Sponsors that have accumulated over time.. At this point we are No Longer accepting any donations until further notice... but if you feel that you have something to contribute please let me know..


If you are a Sponsor and your name does not appear here, please contact me via Pm!

Another Day, Another Bug.

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Woot!

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My Beginnings..

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My Beginnings- Part II

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My Beginnings- Part III

Her name was Alice... Alice in Wonderland...
"Do you need any help" she asked me in all chat, she has a few Oj's by her side, ironic because she was dressed in Oj herself, from the past experience I had with my ex mentor, I didn't think anyone would just help someone without some sort of ulterior motive, wary but cautious I declined the offer but she persisted...

She said she would take me to another city if I needed it, she was already on the way and was just taking anyone who needed any help.. seeing that she had 2-3 more Oj's with her, I decided to give it a go and see what happens...

I was included in the team shortly, where I met the others who also were new players, full of wonder...I proceeded to inundate Alice with questions, to my amazement she always had an answer, we visited 3 cities that day... not once did she scream at me, or made me feel inferior, she explained all the basics, she told me she has been playing for over a year.. I was happy, finally an experienced player, she would kill everything on our path like it was nothing... she gave me the most important thing I needed: Information and Knowledge... I never asked for freebies...

At the end of the run, I had to leave, I didn't know how to repay her for her help, she then asked me if I had a mentor, I didn't tell her about my previous experience but she asked me if I wanted to be her disciple... you mean, I have a choice? The previous guy never gave me a choice... he told me to click yes and then he would help me... I gratefully accepted to undergo my discipleship and pledged my loyalty under her apprenticeship.
She found me... and I was forever in debt. She helped me without me asking, she took me in and showed me the way... I was under no obligation to be her disciple, as she gladly added me to her Friendlist and showed me how to add her too before anything...

So this is a Mentor...every day after that, after each time I signed in, she would welcome me with a Hello and a smiley face at the end always ... always asking me if I had any questions and always giving me more information than I needed... I was a sponge and she was the water...
Someone cared, someone whom I knew nothing off cared about my life in Eu..
I was a nobody and she took me in as her own, kinda like the story of the ugly duckling... slowly but surely, life in Eu started feeling "real".

The money I had deposited in the beginning rapidly was gone within a week or two, running low on peds, my spirit of "freedom" was shortlived, as I knew that sweating wasn't the way for me, at least not for PED's.. Alice told me about other ways to earn peds.. picking fruit/dung, trading, etc.. none of these were for me, I tried trading for a bit only to find it extremely time consuming and hardly rewarding in the end.. I can't find fruit even if my life depended on it and if I don't pick up $hit IRL there is no way Im going to be picking dung virtually.. it seems my first deposit was almost gone and there was only one way to keep surviving: Deposit some More..

I was addicted and I couldn't control it. My CC was available and I had saved up a substancial amount of money IRL to be able to sustain my new habit.
Of course, not enough to buy an LA or a hangar, but enough to "play".
What to buy? What to chose as a profession? There is so much to do.

Beauty? Hmm... after much research, it seemed Akoz was the only one that was high skilled in this profession with little or no competition. I'm a competitor, I strive for the impossible, it's in my blood...
I decided to go for it, with everything to lose, I deposited a large amount of PED's in the earlier months, I bought ALL the Beauty Equipment, the chairs, toolkits, supplies... Everything! For both Hairstyling, to Sculpting to Body Adjustment... I was locked and ready to roll...in the midst of this, I bought myself an Apartment too..

It seemed I missed a BIG part of the equation... money doesn't grow on trees or volunteer skillers, I had Status volunteer a few times for me to skill on, I realized how incredibly boring the entire thing was... the skill gain was incredibly slow and the payback? unless your highly skilled it's usually a negative. Hrm, looks like I went the wrong way... talk about being an impulsive buyer, I realized my Beauty days were over and I gave it up before I even gained a new rank...

Alice warned me of the PED drain, I guess people do learn by experience sometimes... I had forgotten about Mindforce, needless to say she also warned me about it being one of the most expensive professions out there.. I thought to myself, more expensive than Beauty? Why... thats crazyness!!

After much thought, I came to the conclusion that perhaps it was time to sell the stuff I owned and move on to something else.. it was one day, while I was in the old TI city Terminal (ahh I used to love that place)... an Oj came through the terminal and was asking if anyone was selling any beauty equipment... his name was Ido

I opened a private chat with him, seeing the path that I took and my own experience, I told him that Beauty was probably not a good idea. He still wanted to persue it, well you can't stop someone with that kind of determination now can you? The price he was paying for the equipment was below what I had payed, so I declined his offer. We parted ways, but I would always see him on that trade terminal, asking people if they wanted a haircut... Perhaps it was envy, but I must admit I tried putting him down a few times... ahh but he was soo determined, his spirit and his will to become better inspired me a bit, I wanted to feel that.. that feeling of knowing what you want and going for it, 'tis was still my earlier months and there was still much to learn.. like what do I want to become inside Eu..

I remember an Oj, his name was Ido.. and today, he is one of the best Beauty Consultants in Calypso. I've seen him a few times after that, with his 10k Metallic coat from Oxford, strutting his stuff, he always brings a smile to my face whenever I see him... It's always a welcome reminder of humility, he taught me that and although I've never told him, maybe one day he'll find out.. the Oj who slowly found himself in Eu.. I was still that Oj, except I still didn't know who I wanted to be...

I still didn't have a "home" in Eu, I had been part of a society before for a few hours, but I didn't want to be "part" of another society, I wanted to create one with other players who would grow with me, I wasn't looking to become a well known society nor reach top 50 most skilled socs... I just wanted to have a home with others who share that same view...

I remember Church of Lootius in the forums, ahh the good 'ol days when I would debate with Vf and Blackchicken about Lootius, Snablesnotism and life in Eu.. roleplaying... it sounded interesting, but I didn't believe in worshiping Lootius or Snables... I had my own thoughts and previous ideology from RL, perhaps I wanted to incorporate those ideas in Eu, perhaps I wanted something "different" ... it was perfect, it seemed like a good idea, a way to co exist with Karma and the powers of your mind (Mindforce), in a mutual effort to help newcommers, I remember my earlier days and the lack of information I received until I met Alice, I wanted to do More than just play or skill, I wanted to Inspire someone the same way I was inspired... on January of 06, Terra Verde was born...

(to be continued...)

A New Stage- Part I

I proclaimed myself High Mindtropian, at this point I decided that I would dedicate my life in Pe to two things... My own personal development towards Mindforce and helping New players...

When I asked Status if he wanted to create a society, he didn't hesitate to say yes... he was part of another society at the time and he took a few members from there, as it was an inactive society and many of them were leaving... Scorpion was one of them... he also spammed Camp Phoenix for new members, as we had to pass the initial requirement of 8 members within a week to be Official, Qc and Buck came along from one of these recruitment drives... it was the beginning of a new Stage, The Society Life...

It was a new responsibility, a new challenge and it was not as easy as I thought it would be... this would also mean becoming more devoted and more dedicated not just to my own self, but towards the benefit of ourselves as a whole. The basics came along with it too.. building a website, society hunts, spreading the word.. you know, getting your name out there..

It was interesting, meeting people from other parts of the world, I spent alot of time with these individuals whom In reality, I knew nothing off... but I really enjoyed it with every passing moment, I became engulfed with it all...
It became a "Second Life", I would log in each day to be greeted and listened to, my word meant something to these individuals, even if it was in a minimal way... my thoughts carried a bit of weigh and it was my responsibility to lead us somewhere... wherever that would be...

We recruited a few more members by our second month, the society was slowly but surely becoming larger, this was a stage where perhaps I should have taken more precautions with who I was letting inside TV but being the unexperienced "Leader" that I was, I didn't...

A few bad apples showed up, if there was a problem I would be notified by someone, it was dealt with properly and some dismissals were done.
There was a point where everything seemed great, we had active, friendly members, the Golden Stage of TV was here and we all embraced every second of it... frequent trips to Cnd, Society hunts, we did our first Newbie Event in collaboration with another society whom we had close ties with, The Dirty Dozen back when Rob (aka Tanman) was Leading, Terra Verde was becoming more known and with this, it attracted a few new members who changed TV on it's entirely... it attracted a very wrong type of members...

A few months passed by, many of our members trusted each other very well at this point, we were all newcommers, we were inexperienced in our own way.. well, at least thats what I thought, I was in for a very rude awakening, we all were.....

( to be continued...)

Warning: Real Life Ranting

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Busy Bee

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My 1 year Anniversary!

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A little something I wrote today.. this diary is in need of some serious updating, but for now this...

April 7th, 2007
12:40pm

Kitty looks outside the window,
Looking for freedom and for fresh air…
The truth is, no matter how much he stares at the open sky
He will never be free and neither will I…

Kitty stares at the open window,
While the suns rays shed some light inside,
The cold breeze is already gone
It seems freedom will never come…

Kitty stares at night at the open window,
Looking strangely at the passing lights,
Wondering what such strange objects are,
Don’t worry kitty, they will never come, you will never say goodbye…

Kitty stares at the sky, looking at the stars,
Wondering what such bright lights are doing stuck so high,
Sorry kitty, you will never touch them…
You will never be free and neither will I…

Kitty meows when the balcony door is open,
Wondering why he cannot go outside…
Freedom will never be an option... sorry kitty today is not your day…
Maybe tomorrow… maybe…

Kitty looks outside each day,
Days become months, months become years…
Kitty wonders if he will ever be able to run in the green grass
Or get dirty in a puddle of mud,
Sorry kitty… you will never be free and neither will I.

Kitty stares outside the window,
Each day until his final day comes…
You sacrificed your freedom for food,
Your curiosity for the comfort of a home,
Your wild antics for a bit of catnip...
Or did you ever have a choice?

Kitty wonders when he will ever be free,
To roam this world as its own,
When his time will be up from the confinement of his own home…
Every day you die a little more kitty…
Your fur becomes thicker as time goes on,
The food you eat becomes more stale and flavorless,
Colors don’t matter anymore… and neither does time…
Age has made you fatter and lazier than before…
Only waiting until the day you die…


Kitty you will never be free and neither will I…
The truth is, we are already death deep inside…
Freedom was never a choice, for someone higher already chose your path…
It may not have been what you wanted,
It may not have been what you chose… but this is home.

Kitty stares outside the window each day and so do I…
We both look up at the open sky…
Maybe tomorrow kitty… maybe…
Maybe we will both taste freedom one day… or maybe not…

But for today, we both look outside the window,
Wondering if tomorrow will ever come,
Reaching out for a taste of freedom we both never had,
For a place we both can call home…

Run away kitty, run away…
And I will run with you…
For freedom will never come,
If we both wait for it…

Run away kitty, run away…
And I will run with you…
But today we both look outside the window,
Wondering if tomorrow will ever come…

Kitty you will never be free and neither will I…
For the truth is, we are already death, deep inside…

Final Thoughts

Next month, it will be my 2 years anniversary in EU.

I have deleted some of the posts here and there and left some.

I've learnt alot, some things which were very helpful, others which were very dissapointing. It is because of the things I have learned, that the decision of no longer participating in this "virtual world" anymore was an easy one, as it outweights the positives.

People always pretend they know everything here, but once you start comprehending how things work, it really starts to make you a bit sick of where Eu is heading.

I have turned over all the donations that were ever made to Atlan Ion Leticron , he promised me he will continue doing events for newbies, hopefully Alice will help him in the process...if any of the previous sponsors have any questions, you can direct it to him.

For now...Farewell to all who believed in my vision, I have moved on to a bigger calling irl. GL!

This post was made on 11-8-07